Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Being a Mom is Heartbreaking

2 days of vomiting, 9 days of hives, 9 days of runny/stuffy nose, 3 days of cough, 1 day diarrhoea, 2 days ear infection, and one very tired mommy.

Nicole is still sick. Every time I think that she is getting a little better, something new seems to hit. Went to the doctor again yesterday and the doctor said she has a virus, causing the cold symptoms, she also has the stomach flu, she also has an ear infection, and one of her illnesses are causing the hives.

I can stand being tired and sick and having to take care of a sick child. What really is hard on me is watching her suffer and knowing that there is nothing I can do to make is better. After vomiting for the who knows how manyieth time yesterday, little Nicole just kept convulsing with dry heaves. I felt so bad! I would rather have me be sick than watch my child be sick. It is heartbreaking.

Every time she threw up, she just looked up at me and cried with those eyes that asked, "why mom?" I cried with her when I couldn't take it any more. I think being a mom is difficult because we love our little ones so much that we want to do everything for them and just see them happy and healthy. But, life is life and there will be hard times for my child and it just breaks my heart to see it.

I always thought the difficult part of having a sick child would be cleaning up the vomit and the other bodily fluids, but that isn't it. Those parts are easy compared to watching my baby cry because she is so hungry, but I know I can't feed her anything other than pedialite because she will vomit it up.

Lets hope today is better.


Jenni Elyse said...

Poor Nicole. I'm sorry she's so sick and I can only imagine how hard it must be for you to watch and not be able to do anything except try to soothe her. Good luck and I hope she gets better soon.

Marie said...

So sad! Poor Nicoley Oley!

Jasmine said...

Poor Nicole! I hope she starts feeling better soon!

Sarah said...

Poor Noicoley-O. Give her loves for me.

Krista said...

Me and Johnny will pray!