Have You Missed Me?

It has been two years since I have posted on this blog and if you ask me, that is way too long a time to be absent. My only excuse for my prolonged disappearance is twin boys. I thought I was going to be all awesome at being a twin mom while raising two other children, but it turns out that it is like really hard.  So, the last two years have been a lot like survival mode for me. A time where I am lucky if, at the end of the day, every one is uninjured, fed, and clean. I rarely...or never have time to hop on my laptop and if I did have time, I would much rather spend that time sleeping because sleep is oh so very rare.

So, now, Nicole is in second grade and gone for 6 hours a day and Dano is in Kindergarten and gone for 3 hours a day and that leaves me with just the twins for 3 sweet hours most days. And during that time I try really hard to get both of my two-year-olds to nap at the very same time so that I can get maybe 2 hours to myself five whole days a week. It works about  2/5ths of the time. And, I have decided to use one of those days of the week during those precious two hours to blog on this lovely blog. The other days that I get those hours I am going to use selfishly to sleep or fold laundry or do the dishes. I am selfish like that. So, one can hope that I will have a weekly update for my very neglected blog. Okay, plan made, I shall attempt to hold myself to that very shotty plan.

I really really love blogging and I have missed it dearly. I have felt like just a mommy; a very tired and neglected mommy for these last two years. Writing has been such a big part of my life for... well for forever. Before I started this blog back in 2004, I had email and a journal and letters that fed my need for writing. Then, I had this blog and a career that paid me to write (which lets face it is totally awesome because writing is not only easy, but fun). And then I had these last two years of diapers, sleep deprivation, cooking/preparing three meals a day, play dates, carpooling two and from school, teaching preschool, watching more Disney movies than I ever did as a child, cleaning, going to story time, playing at the park, and doing a million other little things that being a mother entails. And it has been rewarding in many ways, but I have also felt like a piece of myself has been missing; like I have been merely surviving and not really living. Which leads me back to writing and this blog. I am not a great... orator (one who speaks well...right?), but I am able to aptly, succinctly, eloquently, and wittily express myself through writing. I was asked to share something from a journal from my youth recently and instead of reading my teenage journals, I simply went back to my early years on this blog and I was pleasantly surprised by my own writing. As I read my old posts I was tickled by how awesome and funny my own writing is and I missed it sorely.

In conclusion, I hope to post more on this blog of mine in the near future that I might find an outlet for my own happiness, that I might record some of my more daily life as a young mother and that I might reconnect with my blogging friends and family. Hopefully this shall all come to pass.